Suzy-Q

Things going...

2007-11-24T12:44:00.000-08:00

A bunch of stuff is running my thoughts. I'm not sure anyone understands, maybe not even me. I think my viewpoint is skewed. I think I would like to just start my new job, and busy myself so I don't think about things anymore. Just live my life one day and not worried or think about the future so much. That's not like me though. The busy part is, the other is not. I'll fix everything soon, just now, it's all up in the air and my control is limited.

love

2007-11-11T12:55:00.000-08:00

What is love and why don't I have it?

2007-10-25T19:46:00.000-07:00

Going well

2007-10-24T18:46:00.000-07:00

Wow! LSAT is some heavy crap. This little girl isn't use to hitting the books so hard and it's been a while. All good stuff though, I love a challenge. Plus I have this mentally, that I can do anything. I wish I found it in more people, not that everything I do is super great, just some of it.
My letter thing went over well. I saw some tears, which means I got a gold star. Also saw a nudge or two, as someone said, "Why can't you say any of that to me?" The response was, "That's my letter to you, she read." Smiles, then laughter.
I couldn't write anything down, I just need my ideas and everything flows forth. The couple that I work wtih thought I did an excellent job and have asked me to come back for the next session they have in a few months. I'll have to think about it, I'm really taking on too much. I really need to live more and enjoy more. No more of this ho-hum stuff.

I declare war!

2007-10-19T14:22:00.000-07:00

Me at work, only sometimes...

Thursday

2007-10-18T14:57:00.000-07:00

I've been meaning to post this for a while, it's lengthy so finding the time to do so with so much on my plate is hard. Silly me, I take on a ton of stuff to keep me busy and content. I can handle it though. One of my long term projects includes "Plan B" aka law school. Funny thing is, I don't believe in plan B's, if you want something, go and get, there's no reason why you can't have something if you are deserving. Having a great job doesn't really follow MY guideline. Hence, Plan B is in effect, almost fully. I wouldn't start until the fall and that's if I get accepted. In order to get accepted I have to take the LSAT, which I take on Dec 1st. Wow, that's closer then we think, with the holidays that's going to fly on over here. Also, I have to make myself look super good. Ha ha, I know I'm cute and all but I have to do community service. I've always wanted to give more back to those who have less or just to help and this is really pushing me out there. I need to find something Avery and I could do together, that would be fun. Little parenting in there, sounds good. For now, I volunteer at a church helping with marriage counseling. I work with a certified counselor and it's really interesting. I have to put on this fake little act though which isn't that great and my couples want to know all about me. "No, no I say, this is about you!" So next week I'm leading the couples and I'm going to have them write love letters to each other. Yes, I did learn that and it works to a certain point to help them realize why they love each other and why the marriage is worth saving. So I have to have an example and my letter goes like this:

I love you. I love the way you take care of the kids and I by making sure we have everything. I would like to have more of you though. I wish you could hold me longer and have that feeling of security rush over me with the warmth of your body. I love sharing everything with you, my feelings, my life. I love you.

Whoa, I have severe writers block. That sucks, I'll work on the letter. If any of you have something sappy to share with me, that I could add. Email me or something. I obviously need some help. Remember, I want people crying by the time a finish reading this. Hell yeah! That's how you know it's golden. With some diamonds!

2007-10-16T18:38:00.000-07:00

My good friend sent me this, she thought it pin pointed me down. Although the unrealistic part is half true, I think I'm a very reasonable person. Maybe I'm dreaming.

PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

Went to the gym again, very nice. It kicked my butt, very nice. Going back tomorrow, again, very nice. Working out makes me feel good, a little sweaty and gross but overall good.

Went to the Gym

2007-10-15T19:25:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, I went to the gym. By myself no less. <~~~Highly unusual for me to go alone anywhere. I think I must be the friendliest person in yoga, I can get anyone talking and I made two new friends while I was there. So overall, going to the gym gets an A+, I will be going a ton more. Yoga was fabulous, everyone should do it. I didn't realize how stressed and tight I was until I let everything go. I feel so much better inside and out. Super great I tell you.

The Gym

2007-10-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

I joined the gym this past Thursday with one of my girls, Char. She has been, but I have not. I hope this isn't a trend and one of those things I'm throwing my money away on. So I'm going Monday. Go Susan! Char, if you read this before I get to you, I think you should go with me. At least I'll be sure to have fun while I sweat. Insert whining here... I don't like to sweat. Oh, you have to go with me, part of the reason I joined is so I could look smokin' hot for your New Years Party. I adore you. We will see how this gym stuff goes, expect updates later. I'm going to go eat fried foods in Conroe now.

Good

2007-10-06T00:25:00.000-07:00

I'm good now, a few drinks with friends makes a girl feel all better. It's more the friends, not so much the drinks. I don't want to go to any more meetings. Hee hee. Night, babies!

So sucky.

2007-10-04T17:29:00.000-07:00

I feel so sucky right now. That rejection, it kills my spirit a little. The funny thing is, in a day or two I'll bounce right back and be better than ever. No one would know something was wrong. I'm going to eat a bowl of cereal and have a glass of wine, call the doctor in the morning. Sigh....

I adore this!

2007-10-03T19:09:00.000-07:00

Try it once.

2007-10-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

http://choosers.ivillage.com/love/perfect_position/

Come on people, lets have some fun!

Hurt

2007-10-03T09:04:00.000-07:00

I adore my friends so much and everyday I speak with a few of them. I'm so lucky to have so many in so many levels. It bothers me when I have to hear about their pain. Things happen and people get hurt, its just life, I know. I still wish I could do more to take it away.
While speaking one of my friends the risk of love came up. And this talk is common among friends and it hits on different subjects, the common thread is, the hurt that comes from love. (Why 'risk' the pain for love?) Was the question. Now through all my experience and education, I still might not be the person to answer this question. As I think, many of us could not. Most honestly, the beauty of any love on any level is greater than the pain. True love is worth the risk, we should all jump in and take it. Knock down your walls and the walls of others, show all you have because you love yourself and you can love others. Remember, others have not felt love the way you do and the opposite is also true. Show what can be done, don't just talk about it. Love takes away pain, don't look at what is lost, but what has been gained. That's all now, I'll revisit this later.